Are you gifted?

So here I am sitting in my apartment, wondering how the hell I ended up here again so quick.

Time flies when you are having fun right?!?

And fun we did have! Also quite time, cuddle time and conversation time.

Also big fat cat on my belly time!

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Nah he isn’t that fat just loves to get on top of you no matter what awkward position you might be in at the moment.

So what next you are probably wondering? Yeah I have it all sorted out in my head but I still need to turn it into reality. That is the part where I am noticing big behavior patterns coming up again and falling into bad habits.

So what do I do, how can I stop that from happening again. Hang on maybe let me clarify a bit more what I am actually talking about.

I know everyone has there own challenges in life and I believe our mission is to face them and to step through to a higher version (spiritually speaking) of yourself. There really is only two choices that we have to make, we can either grow/evolve into a different you or stay still/stagnate and repeat patterns, until we have done it so many times we finally change it or we take it underground.

I believe we then get reincarnated and have to do it all over again just in a different tool/body but hey that’s what I like to believe in.

One of my biggest challenges in this life is to feel worthy and create a healthy income that sustains my lifestyle. In this day and age there are so many possibilities to start your own business and make a living yet I was conditioned to believe that I need to exchange my time for money and work hard to make a good living and I have worked hard and I didn’t get a uni degree, I always felt like I am going to show them and become successful without a degree. There is a part of me that still believes that and wants that, but there is another part that say’s you can’t do that, you don’t have the qualification.

Generally we are lazy beings, beings of comfort oh yeah and it is so nice to be lazy sometimes, but then I have this part in my head that makes me feel guilty about not doing anything. I know deep down I can achieve anything I put my mind too. For crying out loud I moved to Australia to start a new life not knowing how I was going to do it but it all flowed because I was in alignment and I wanted it real bad.

I learned to speak English, not at school, no I quit English at 10th grade and replaced it with Italian. Not that I can still speak Italian but hey …I can do the English a little.

So I guess we have to learn to kick that part of doubt in the butt and focus on what our hearts deepest desire is because only then we can life a fulfilled life. It takes time and hard work and dedication, but it is a different kind of hard work because it is in alignment with your gift. We all have a gift but so many of us are too afraid to tap into that gift and take the leap.

I wish so much for my readers for myself that we gather our strength and take a step towards our deep down our truth our gift and make your world and the world around you a better place

I believe we can do it.

Ciao for now, Hendrik.

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It’s not over

So I got this story to tell you,

I am in love with a beautiful woman, who is courages and strong, who is sexy and smart and we are the perfect match for each other. We met here in Australia, at Wategos Beach and it all moved pretty quick from there. I guess you know it when you know it!

Sometimes we thought argh, we are almost too similar, same or similar issues that we have to deal with in our life but it just flowed beautifully until the Australian government kicked her out of the country! I know working on a tourist visa doesn’t look to good, but how can you survive living in such an expensive country for several month without having to work? You have to be f..ing loaded.

Oh well, we thought let this just be a challenge for the love that we have for each other and so it was. We decided on going to NZ since it was close to my home and according to customs it was also possible for her to come to NZ and live and work legally. So after 3 month of just skyping and talking on the phone we thought we will meet again in Auckland. I ended up getting some work as a kitesurf instructor and flew back to Australia to pick up the rest of my belongings. Ready for the new adventure being with my woman in a new country.

The day finally came were she arrived to Auckland and as I was waiting at the airport, I was getting nervous that something wasn’t quite right. She should have walked through the gate by now. Finally after an hour or so of waiting I got a phone call from my woman from the other side of the gate. She was weeping and I just ended up on my ass when I heard that they refused to let her in and will send her home on the next plane. Not to Canada this time, just to San Francisco. It was devastating news and at that moment I wasn’t sure what the universe was trying to tell us. Anyway I thought stay strong tell her not to worry and be sure that we will make it work some other way.

She flew back to San Francisco and stayed there for two more weeks while I sold most of my belongings and packed a backpack to meet her in Thailand.

Thailand it was and finally after almost 4 month we could hold each other in our arms again. She picked me up in Phuket and we made our way to Koh Lanta to spend a month together on the Island. I remember walking out of customs in Phuket and seeing my woman there waiting for me. Seeing her there was the best thing in the world. It felt like I was whole again and the part of me that was missing is finally back.

We spend an amazing month on Koh Lanta and had some great insides about our relationship and just pure innocent love for each other.

We decided to carry on with our journey and a couple of month later we found ourselves in Sri Lanka. I was again working as a kitesurf instructor and she worked as a yoga teacher. Everything seemed like it was heading the right direction, next stop europe and there we can start our life together. We would get a job and work towards living in Australia together. But she had different plans and the fact that we had to start somewhere completely new didn’t sit well with her.

Now she is going back to Canada and starts completely new on her own! Yeah I guess there is some family there to support her and there is also a country that supports her, but the love of her life isn’t. (If I am ?)

I had to do what I had to do and call it off after she did once before and then changed her mind again from break up to just a break to wanting to be with me again. I guess this whole story shows that love has no boundaries and sometimes even though you meet your soulmate, you might still end up on your own. I do believe that if we are meant to be together we will be together, but putting so much pressure on one another just to be with someone doesn’t feel fair on both levels. I miss her and I love her but I have to let her go. This is probably one of the hardest things I have done in my life and I really hope that the universe will lead us together in a different way. You just have to trust I guess and let it be.

Back to my normal posts again soon…Me and Lys

Ciao for now.

Don’t be so hard on yourself

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is a term I don’t use very often. I am in fact quite hard on myself and don’t give myself enough credit for the things that I have accomplished. It is easy to catch myself thinking, but if only I had this … ( insert item of want ) then my life would be complete and only then I am my full potential. But do you hear how that is just ego talking. No, me neither. Sometimes it talks and it really makes you believe that it is you talking and not your ego. Only when I catch myself going ah I want to go shopping or I browse for motorbikes on the internet or I end up on Netflix, basically falling into any of my addictions that’s when I realise I am trying to get back into living in the moment and I am trying to feel worthy and abundant. Continue reading “”

Lightbulb

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Man how I love these moments where you have an insight about your life, someone just picks you up on something and you realise, damn is that what is wrong with me?

Well first of all nothing is wrong with me, I am perfect the way I am, but you know what I mean, there is always room for improvement. We are here to evolve into the amazing beings that we are. Let’s grow together. Continue reading “”

Start creating

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Do you find yourself trapped in your mind? You know you are not really living your purpose but fear keeps control of you and you procrastinate rather than go out there and do what you really desire. Deep down you know you have so much more to give than your 9-5 daily grind and it eats you up from the inside. What can you do? How can we live the life we are supposed to live?

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The blame game

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When Life gets a bit tough we tend to blame it on someone/ something and therefore give ourself permission that it is ok to fail and be miserable. Rather than pulling the finger out and taking responsibility for ourself. It is so easy to find excuses and our mind loves to feed on it.

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Do we have too many choices? 

You know, I get totally overwhelmed when I go shopping for pretty much anything, In a supermarket my logic brain just turns into a fart and I consume without thinking, Especially when I go hungry and on top of that don’t have a list! That is just asking for disaster.

If you were to stand in front of a shelf with 100 different ketchup bottles would you still know which bottle to buy?

Or are you just simply overwhelmed and end up buying nothing…

Most likely the second , in fact Barry Schwartz did run a test on this matter if you fancy reading it.

Question: Is our life predetermined, or is the way of life to be freely chosen?
Krishnamurti: So long as we have choice, surely there is no freedom. Do not merely reject or accept it, but let us think it out together. The mind that is capable of choosing is not free because in choice there is always conflict, conscious or unconscious, and a mind that is in conflict is never free. Our life is full of conflict; we are always choosing between good and bad, between this and that; you know this very well. We are always comparing, judging, evaluating, accepting, rejecting -that is the process of our life, which is a constant struggle, and a mind that is struggling is never free.

Umpf ok, that one is a bit heavy but let us just move over to the choices in life we take regarding our job/career, where do we want to live? Is there a place where we can have it all?

The answer is…

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