So here I am sitting in my apartment, wondering how the hell I ended up here again so quick.
Time flies when you are having fun right?!?
And fun we did have! Also quite time, cuddle time and conversation time.
Also big fat cat on my belly time!
Nah he isn’t that fat just loves to get on top of you no matter what awkward position you might be in at the moment.
So what next you are probably wondering? Yeah I have it all sorted out in my head but I still need to turn it into reality. That is the part where I am noticing big behavior patterns coming up again and falling into bad habits.
So what do I do, how can I stop that from happening again. Hang on maybe let me clarify a bit more what I am actually talking about.
I know everyone has there own challenges in life and I believe our mission is to face them and to step through to a higher version (spiritually speaking) of yourself. There really is only two choices that we have to make, we can either grow/evolve into a different you or stay still/stagnate and repeat patterns, until we have done it so many times we finally change it or we take it underground.
I believe we then get reincarnated and have to do it all over again just in a different tool/body but hey that’s what I like to believe in.
One of my biggest challenges in this life is to feel worthy and create a healthy income that sustains my lifestyle. In this day and age there are so many possibilities to start your own business and make a living yet I was conditioned to believe that I need to exchange my time for money and work hard to make a good living and I have worked hard and I didn’t get a uni degree, I always felt like I am going to show them and become successful without a degree. There is a part of me that still believes that and wants that, but there is another part that say’s you can’t do that, you don’t have the qualification.
Generally we are lazy beings, beings of comfort oh yeah and it is so nice to be lazy sometimes, but then I have this part in my head that makes me feel guilty about not doing anything. I know deep down I can achieve anything I put my mind too. For crying out loud I moved to Australia to start a new life not knowing how I was going to do it but it all flowed because I was in alignment and I wanted it real bad.
I learned to speak English, not at school, no I quit English at 10th grade and replaced it with Italian. Not that I can still speak Italian but hey …I can do the English a little.
So I guess we have to learn to kick that part of doubt in the butt and focus on what our hearts deepest desire is because only then we can life a fulfilled life. It takes time and hard work and dedication, but it is a different kind of hard work because it is in alignment with your gift. We all have a gift but so many of us are too afraid to tap into that gift and take the leap.
I wish so much for my readers for myself that we gather our strength and take a step towards our deep down our truth our gift and make your world and the world around you a better place
I believe we can do it.
Ciao for now, Hendrik.
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What if I would have not followed my heart?
What if I would have stayed at home? How could my life be different? Well you will never know until you try.
Is it scary, yes for sure. Is the reward amazing?
Most likely. You don’t know until you have tried it and I highly encourage anyone that is not happy with the job they are in or the unfulfilled marriage the live, to listen to their heart and do the only thing that is worth doing.
Follow your dreams and fuck it. Just go for it, worst case scenario you get another shitty job you don’t like but you will never know what could have been if you didn’t try.
So fuck it, jump into the deep end and go for it. Life is too short to be doing things you don’t like.
Will it take discipline and hard work and dedication? Yep, but if you are in alignment with yourself it will also come very playful and with ease.
Was there ever any doubt to go to Canada?
Not on my side, but I had a few guys that seemed very concerned about my decision to go to Canada. I could only say, don’t worry I can only win in this situation, whether it is just a trip to Canada or actually a reunion and a new start with my lady.
I am sorry to disappoint the nay sayer’s but it was even more than a reunion and an amazing trip. It was a kick in my own ass not living in fear and worrying but trusting my heart and following it.
I still struggle in certain areas with that, but not when it comes to Lysanne!
So happy and excited for the future,
Ciao for now, Hendrik.
So I am in Canada for the first time in my life and apart from it being french, at least where I am, I feel very comfortable if not to say home. Not only has my world done a 360 and put me from Australian summer to Canadian winter but it also put me back into the arms of the woman I want to be with.
Thankfully to the Wright brothers we are now able to fly around this planet in less than 24 hours. Man, it is truly amazing, we can sit in a chair in the air and watch movies and even get some sort of “food” at the altitude of around 10 km.
Take that in… why does no one clap anymore when we land?
Anyway, Canada showed off with all the amazing colours in Autumn and I was practising my camera skills.
So what happened you wonder?
Well the story continues and Lysanne and I are back together and it even seems that our relationship is stronger than before.
After all, letting go only made room for new ways of being together, yes it was hard at times going through the pain of being alone again, but finally after I accepted it, it did a u-turn.
Quite a dramatic one, I have to add. Even though Lys had decided to go back home and do her own thing we were still very much in contact at the time and that was something we both didn’t really want because it just makes a break up so much harder to process, but hey there was always love and who wants to be alone anyway?
After a while it just became too hard for me and so I called it off again. This time it took, maybe a week until she called me again, but there was a shake in her voice that told me something wasn’t right.
She had a car accident with her brother driving and luckily even though the car was a ride off, no one got injured during the accident. It was quite a traumatic experience and it made her realise that she wanted to spend her life with me. Surround herself with the people that she cares and loves and so she asked me if I was willing to come and see her in Canada.
Guess what I answered?
Sad that we have to have almost a death near experience to realise what we actually want out of life. But in a twisted weird way I am glad that this accident happened otherwise I may still be in Australia.
And so the love story continues and hopefully never ends.
Now it comes down to me figuring a way out to stay in Canada for at least a couple of month a year and also make an income happening. There are so many things out there and luckily we live in a day and age where online income is not out of reach at all.
I am about to head back to Australia and will take the time to set myself up, so that I can spend more time in Canada with my beautiful girlfriend and work on my photography skills… Ciao for now, Hendrik
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Send me back to Canada
When I wonder what to write I write in wonders!
Songs are playing through my head,
is it ever quite up there?
So sit and do nothing, but why I ask if I can scrawl through instagram and watch motorbikes, tattoos and kitesurfing babes!
Do nothing, sit straight…wait I am not sitting straight you say?
It’s gotta be good when it hurts, right?
The journey is life, are you living the life you desire?
Are you surrounding yourself with people that lift your spirit?
To easy can I fall into old habits and find myself going through a PATTERN that now I even recognise from the past but still repeat. Often I feel guilt about not being somewhere else but where I am and I have to remind myself that I am exactly where I am supposed to be and the same goes for you.
Accepting the life we have realising that everything is temporary and being grateful for what we have is a big step towards inner peace and happiness. So easily said, yet sometimes forgotten in the rush of the day or the stress we put on us.
We want to be entertained and confused with a reality that isn’t ours, having trust in ourself is sometimes a hard exercise that we need to repeat.
Let’s start a movement and see how it changes our life.
Love and always ciao for now, Hendrik
Woowza, timezone change and sleep pattern is screwed up! Why you ask?
Well if you have been following my blog, you most likely have discovered that it was a lot about heartbreak and growth. Becoming a better version of myself why also processing a break up that wasn’t for seen and has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions.
Not necessarily in a bad way, well it just isn’t always easy, this life of ours and the relationships that come with it.
Anyway, so I am in Canada right now. Boom!
I have met up with this woman of mine. She wrote on her last letter to me that she loves me and that we will see each other again. This seemed far fetched for me, because I just couldn’t see it at the time (3 month ago now), since I guess I was also using my logic brain to figure things out.
It works perfect sometimes and other times its better to leave the logic brain at home.
Anyway, trust in it, is what she said! So i tried.
It’s quite amazing what the universe can move for you, if only you know what you want and are clear about it.
Well, here I am in the land of maple sirup and moose and bears, which so far I have only seen maple sirup, oh and red dear!!!! Its a very beautiful country from what I can tell after 3 days of being here and I was lucky enough to arrive at just the right time in autumn for when the leaves turn red and yellow and then they drop. This sometimes happens within a couple of days. But I got some good photos I think. I will post them later, since I forgot the camera cable at home.
What now you ask? Now it is the time to connect with the land and its people and particularly with my woman. Will I move here, will we move somewhere else or what is going to happen. First of all we need to trust in the situation and I think from where we have come from, with deportation and travelling half the world, man there is much more exciting stuff ahead of us.
Isn’t this amazing? We have this massive planet and yet it’s become such a small playground for some of us.
I have friends all over the world and it takes maximum a day to fly there and visit them.
So this love story isn’t over yet, which I am very happy about.
I guess the moral of this story is that no matter what happens if it is meant to happen it will happen, even though it is hard to see at times and maybe impossible for the mind to figure out but sometimes life changing circumstances ( like a car accident) have to happen to bring you back to your loved ones. Oh yeah, that happened, luckily no one got injured just a big shock and a wake up call. So yeah the universe has interesting ways to bring you back together, so trust in it, trust in yourself and follow the pass of love and least resistance.
On that note, ciao for now,